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It really is. I got an email today which (thankfully) reminded me to do my ES pre-lab. I then proceeded to do other things, and checked my email again, and remembered, but then I forgot again in like ten minutes! And I mean forgot, too; like, if I hadn’t just checked my email again I would have gone to sleep blissfully believing that everything was fine and done. I gotta try ginseng or something, man…. my to-do list is full of crap that’s there just so I remember to do it, heck, just so I remember it even exists. I had completely forgotten I had an ES midterm this wednesday until I looked at the syllabus to see what the next lab was (and this is after I had a review session). I was even planning on going to EB games instead of ES lecture as celebration of the completion of the first round of midterms! I guess I’ll just have to put that back an hour…

Ah but it could just be that I have too much to plan right now… I really hate planning… actually, I hate having anything to do with the future, in the most concrete sense. I live moment to moment, which is perhaps a bad thing in today’s society on which so much is dependent upon good planning, good time and project management. It seems though that most of my generation shares this thought… everyone procrastinates, never does anything until it absolutely needs to be done, puts things off if they don’t need to be done by the next moment. The idea is simple, yet important: we all live in the present, the future is as important to us as the past. The future is just a place to put things so we can have the present to ourselves. To-do lists perhaps support this a little too much. They’re a place to store things to do in the future; so once something’s on the list, you can forget about it. I think that’s why I’m forgetting everything.

So now I actually have to do my ES homework… go figure. Wish me luck on my math test tomorrow; though if it’s anything like the practice midterm they gave us, I should be fine. It’s just linear algebra (heh). ::